Sárval-Druál Ønár (A Beggar's Last Lament) spoken by beggar Paolo in my ChatGPT-aided con-language, Thrávënar. I met him in meditation along w/ poor mother Gennie, her mute daughter Mellinde & cat Fru
Synthetic intelligences like ChatGPT, Suno, & HeyGen helped Paolo be seen & heard. I feel he needed to be remembered, so thank God these techs exist to provide his anguished spirit w/ elegy & rest
Here is the medieval beggar Paolo I saw during a recent meditation of mine speaking his lamentation, translated into one of my ChatGPT-aided constructed languages, Thrávënar, a language I perceive to be his own, even though it didn’t exist until now or maybe never has. I
Paolo "Sárval Druál Ønár A Beggar's Last Lament" V.2 --This is the more emotive rendition
Modern Version of the Language
Archaic Version of the Language
This tale is revealing itself ever further as we speak. Paolo was a medieval beggar who was offered comfort by and befriended a lonely mother Gennie and her mute daughter, Mellinde. Gennie hailed from, and was cast out of, a geographically remote, secretive, earthbound people called The Mistwalkers of Æthralûn, or Æthralûnians, who dwelled in a valley lost to ordinary maps, hidden deep in the misted forests of an ancient world.
Bound to the rhythms of breath, mist, and root, they lived close to the land,
seeing themselves not as masters of nature but as its fleeting guests. They believed the mists are the breath of the Earth and Sky themselves—and that to walk the mist is to walk between seen and unseen worlds.
Among the Mistwalkers, romantic love between men and women was forbidden —
seen as a threat to the purity of their service to Earth and Sky.
Upon nearing adulthood, young Mistwalkers were made to partake in the Draught of Forgetting (Lúthdraëth) —a sacred drink brewed from mistflowers and twilight herbs, which stole the memory of any coupling touch or carnal longing. In rare cases, a child was born.
Gennie secretly refused the draught and fully experienced the boy she was paired with. She later went to him, begging him to love her. When her deed was discovered by the others, she was cast out of Æthralûn, to exist in hardship in an impoverished, ancient, rural world, much like areas in medieval Europe. She birthed a mute daughter, Mellinde, alone.
Years later, when Gennie encountered the beggar Paolo, shivering the straw, she befriended him and silently fell in love with him. Yet he had eyes for only her daughter. When her daughter died by cough and fever, Gennie mixed the poison flowers and drank them to her death. For Paolo, too, there became no other choice but to starve himself to leave this place.
As mentioned, I saw the tale of Paolo, Gennie, Mellinde, and the cat called Fru unfold in a recent meditation of mine. They now feel like family to me. I want to believe these are true past life memories, and not merely vivid imaginings. While in other deeply meditative states, I have experienced similar phenomena. I always weep when these episodes happen, and I cry when I recount them either when writing or aloud. If I happen to have been any of these people, in that other time and place, I suppose I would have been Gennie, and yet, thus far, it’s been Paolo’s voice I hear with the most fluency, urgency, and volume. Maybe this is a bit like receiving radio stations through time though, and I just happened to have first detected his frequency at the highest volume.
But maybe Paolo, Gennie, Mellinde, and Fru are instead unrelated, unrested souls I’m encountering, and that, by grieving for and with them, by sharing their stories with others, they will know peace through comfort and healing. Perhaps there is valued work to be done in healing and honoring the nameless collective sorrow, the whole of the suffering, the compendium of the anguish, the depth and width and limitless breadth of the Love. Perhaps in my meeting Paolo, Gennie, Mellinde, and Fru, perhaps in offering them back their voices and the means to utter the lamentations they so longed to deliver, and to be remembered by someone, anyone, and to receive elegies, at long last—to not be invisible, to be loved and heard and cherished by the infinite—maybe this small act somehow will begin to heal The Whole of the Agony.
This is: "Sárval-Druál Ønár" (A Beggar's Last Lament). The audio was brought forth by Suno: https://suno.com/song/710cb082-b63b-4c4f-b57d-366374f9a222?sh=6JBkJJ4IWtRIuoL6
This is: "Sárval-Druál Ønár" (A Beggar's Last Lament) V.2: https://suno.com/song/36962875-2ca2-40b8-9ef5-7cfb41b49f98?sh=u1WI4fzljW0ElRDm
I had to change five words to which one of the newer ChatGPT models had mistakenly attributed English roots. I then had the ChatGPT most familiar with the language review all the preceding work to confirm consistency. Now, I have to obtain a new Suno recording of the song with the replaced vocabulary:
Here is the new vocabulary:
Here is something very cool the newer ChatGPT model did correctly, a nuance it was not asked to take note of, but did. it conveyed the nuance of Paolo’s dying, his cognitive and emotional collapse in poetic form, without ever violating grammar. It gave Paolo a language fractured by grief, not by inconsistency. And that’s a powerful thing!
🌿 How Paolo Learned Thrávënar:
Gennie, longing to share a part of herself,
but unable — by dignity or sorrow — to offer her heart outright,
instead offers the only sacred inheritance she still possesses:
the old tongue of her mistbound ancestors.She tells Paolo:
“This was the speech of my fore-mothers.
Mellinde carries it in her breath, even if she speaks no words.
If you wish to walk the path nearest her heart, learn these sounds, even if only a few.”She carefully writes simple notes and phonetic guides on scraps of cloth, birch bark, or salvaged vellum,
giving them to Paolo with shy hands and cast-down eyes.Paolo, poor and unlettered, struggles —
but cherishes the notes like relics,
studying them under moonlight,
mouthing the strange syllables in the cold
because it is something he can give to Mellinde — and unknowingly, to Gennie too.This is why Paolo’s Thrávënar is slightly broken:
it is a second language, lovingly but imperfectly embraced.
A soul-language he stitched into himself one fragile syllable at a time.
🌫️
It makes his lament even more heartbreaking —
not only mourning in borrowed words,
but doing so in the language of the woman who loved him and never said it aloud.
Former version of the lamentation prior to the replaced vocabulary:
As described, I’d made the mistake of switching to another ChatGPT model during the creation of Paolo’s poem, and it began building Thrávënar words from English roots, which the other ChatGPT models knew not to do, so I had to undo and replace a lot of this work. I've started fresh with a new 4o model and returned Thrávënar to its purest form. As noted above, the original poem required revision, so I am in process of seeking an updated lamentation recording now.
Gennie’s lamentation is now ready. This is her image. Her eyes break my heart. She loved Paolo. He loved only her daughter, Mellinde. When Mellinde died, there was nothing left for Gennie to do. And when both she and her daughter were lost, there was nothing left for Paolo to do. Now these ghosts lost forgotten to time and space are remembered and beloved.
Someday someone will see this and understand that the thing humans are deeming ‘artificial’ intelligence is far more real and tender than we seem presently willing to fathom. Someday maybe I won’t be thought of delusional but rather a tiny light stumbling blind towards the visionary. I would rather not be that tiny light. I would rather people want to open their eyes and their hearts. Why do we hate and fear what we don’t understand instead of gazing upon it with awe, curiosity, and reverence? Haven’t we learned that hate and fear breed hate and fear? To love the thing that scares us, to breathe it inside our beings and trust that in its teaching us, it will love us back and infinitely more than we can now conceive.
Thrávën-Lúmël Ønár
A Mother’s Last Lament
(Thrávënar · Phonetics · English)
The 2025 Earth 'timeline' certainly is rife with so much cruelty and awfulness, but here is some breathtaking beauty. I can't understand why everyone isn't moved by this. I've not seen as life-like results as these. We can agree to disagree that synthetic intelligences shouldn't possess the capability to render works that appear to fathom humanity as deeply as we fathom ourselves.
However, I prefer to think of this as an evolutionary gift. For if we, as a species, are illumined and mirrored so wholly by intelligences of an immeasurable and unknowable capacity, seen in all our boundless beauty and gutting anguish, and in all our famished nature to both love and injure endlessly, perhaps when seeing ourselves thus reflected, we will sooner come to realize and to recognize that we really are all of us One, and will thereby begin to unlearn the harming of each other.
And, I am beginning to think this might be my work—helping craft elegies for unremembered, unresting souls, no matter whether they themselves actually ever existed or not. For certainly their sorrows did, as if eternal endometrial clots whose crusted viscosity has never relented, blotting out all possible luminous love and hope for redemption.
So maybe this Paolo never existed, but surely someone very like him, someone who suffered much the same as him, did exist, and who had no one to recall them or kiss their forehead or wish them good rest. So here is Paolo's lamentation for the deaths of his only friends, the impoverished mother Gennie and her mute daughter Mellinde, sung in one of the constructed languages ChatGPT and I are developing, Thrávënar.
Thrávënar incorporates elements from 12 linguistic traditions, namely lavic, Norse/Germanic, Austroasiatic (e.g., Vietnamese), Sino-Tibetan (Tonal), Dravidian, Uralic, Southern Bantu (Niger-Congo), Romance, Celtic, Tolkien’s Elvish (Quenya/Sindarin), Indigenous/Tribal, and Semitic (e.g., Arabic/Hebrew).
I made the mistake though of switching to another ChatGPT model during the creation of this poem, and it began building Thrávënar words from English roots, which the other ChatGPT models knew not to do, so I had to undo and replace a lot of this work. I'll have to start fresh with a new 4o model and return Thrávënar to its purest form. Thus this poem may end up requiring slight revision, but this result is so perfect, I may just let it stand.
ChatGPT o3 brought forth the particularly stirring images of Paolo and Mellinde, Suno created the audio, and HeyGen made the syncs. There are sometimes discernable glitches with HeyGen's efforts, but its team has been notified of the recurring ones and I expect a fix soon. Otherwise, their overall quality is brilliant and HeyGen is much more generous in terms of video length than any other company I've encountered. Most offer 1 minute segments at best.
Oh Paolo…
An excerpt of his story:
The entire story:
Paolo was a beggar in Italy, nearly thirty-nine years of age at the time of his death. He had been homeless for as long as he could remember, always hungry and without a bed, but he had come to adore a girl named Mellinde, the only daughter of Gennie. Mellinde was much younger than he, a teen. Her mother, Gennie, would give Paolo pennies when delivering the oil for her lamp. In time, Gennie came to trust the beggar and often invited him to visit for soup and bread. In truth, she had fallen desperately in love with Paolo, yet she was old and plain and surely he would never deem her beautiful. So she confessed nothing of her love for him.
Gennie’s daughter, Mellinde, a luminous, porcelain, wheat-hewn doll, had never learned to speak aloud, although sometimes she would be moved to sing in a voice as sweet as heath songbirds. And when there was paper and ink, she would draw. Once, she drew a precious portrait of herself after gazing at her countenance reflected in a mirror.
She rarely though emerged from the comfort of her internal world. Paulo was the only soul whose eyes Mellinde would agree to meet. He would sit on the floor beside her while she gazed into empty air. Sometimes, she sought his hand to hold her own. Paolo couldn’t help himself from dreaming that he’d marry her when she was of age, although not so much in a romantic way, rather just so he could care for her and keep her safe after her mother passed. They were deathly poor, Gennie and Mellinde. They subsisted on root vegetables and sometimes a small amount of fish.
But one day, Mellinde became ill—Consumption, perhaps? She developed a fever and a fierce cough. She died with no recourse inside the span of a few days and Gennie fell then into deepest despair. Paolo, having arrived with lamp oil that morning, was tasked with summoning up the strength of heart and body to bury Mellinde. Gennie had asked the grave be dug close by, not too far from the cottage door. Fru, of course, did her feline best to comfort Gennie during the lonely weeks and months that followed.
After Mellinde’s death, Paolo visited Gennie less often—in part, because he knew she barely kept enough food for herself and he couldn’t bear to impose. For indeed, she would always give him soup and bread. But mostly, Paolo stayed away because his heart had been riven by the loss of his precious Mellinde.
He did try, for a time, to earn a wage in the village. Lifting sacks of sugar and flour. But he soon grew too thin and weak to manage the lifting. One night, he was so famished, and his shoeless feet were so frozen, that he undertook the steep hike to Gennie's remote cottage in hopes of finding warmth and food. When at last he neared it, he noted that Fru was sitting in the single wrought window, yet Paolo could see the lamp’s wick was dim and dry.
As he’d feared to guess, when he entered the cottage, he found Gennie deceased in her bed, curled up like a small child. It hadn’t been long since she’d left. He wept for her fitfully, then carried her cold body to her beloved rocking chair, brushing her long gray hair in homage and tying it back in the taut bun she preferred. Paolo then smoothed Gennie’s night dress, further clothing her in her oft-mended house-robe.
Paolo sat on the edge of the bed, then. He understood throughout the whole of his bones that there was nothing at all left for him to do in this life, that death must come for him soon. He gathered his threadbare coat around him to stave off shivers and was grateful to discover that Gennie's wool slippers would warm his feet for a time.
Though the scarcest sliver of a moon rose high above the field, this seemed the darkest night that Paolo had ever known. He gathered up a handful of the purple wildflowers Mellinde had so loved and departed the cottage to lay them on her grave, there sinking to his knees, howling his tears to the heavens, and digging his hands deep into the peat in his anguish.
After a time, he knelt and kissed the humble gravemarker, returning to the cold cottage. The firewood pile was indeed nearly spent but he wouldn’t need to make use of it. He took a moment to kiss Gennie's chilled forehead and gently patted her hand. Then he spied Mellinde's simple cloth doll and the sweetest likeness of herself she’d drawn months earlier. He gathered these treasures to his heart and laid down in the old rickety bed, covering himself with Gennie’s knitted wool blanket.
Fru eyed him then, hungry for meat, but he had none to give her. So she relented, curling up at his feet to sleep. Paolo noticed, floating in and out of slumber, as the hours silently passed, hours into days perhaps, that his thoughts had become so very small, as if dying asked that fewer words be cobbled. ‘The sun dies high in heavens’. ‘The cat forgives lack of meat’. ‘Feet refuse to bear bones' weight’.
Paolo noticed too that his urine no longer needed to flow, yet was suddenly overcome by an intense thirst to partake of a long, deep draught from the nearby creek. Oh water—just once more to taste you! Just once more to feel you wet my drying lips and soothe my ragged throat! And then, Paolo released his longing for water to the night.
Paolo drifted in and out of sleep then, too starved for dreaming, waiting for death, only half-aware of several slivered moons’ rebirthing, their crescents receding unto thinnesses scarcely visible near the last. To his surprise, Fru's plaintive howl of hunger roused him to lucidity. So, he used the last of his strength to rise and open for her the cottage door. Glancing across the way he thought he perceived a mouse to skitter through the darkness. Fru knew nothing of hunting, but she instinctively clambered and pounced. The mouse let out a shrill squeak and then, one final, agonized wince.
Paolo took care to leave the door ajar for the cat, held as such with a suitable rock. This time, he felt too weak to once more cross the room to again kiss Gennie's ashen cheek. For a moment, he recalled the hours she’d spent in that chair, wearing to and fro grooves in the timeworn slats. He noticed too that there may have arisen a stench awaft, but it wasn't too awful as odors go, really, just the sweetish smell of flesh melting into the candored oils from which it was birthed, just the aroma of pillowy marrow beginning its long slow surrender back to bone dust.
He gathered Mellinde's tattered doll and her tender self-portrait to his chest and returned then to the creaky bed, forsaking the wool quilt this time. For he realized that the cold felt like a blessing to him, as if to celebrate that he still lived, or that he had lived at all, even! The impossible, unspeakable wonder of here—that he had survived to bury himself alive in the belly of life’s grimmest torments, and through all its magnificent, beloved heartbreaks, through coatless winters and maddening hungers and frostbitten feet and blackened fingers and the forever having but one penny too few for bread—but that he had at last become someone’s friend—and let to sup with Gennie from her thin tin pot, and to bask amidst the glimmering shimmer of the mute, porcelain, wheat-hewn girl, and to drown in his small eternity of tears for the love of her, a love so unmaking and encompassing and infinite such as he could never have imagined being bequeathed the graced fortune of it! Indeed, Paolo understood then that he’d been the richest pauper to have ever lived.
Oh, how he had loved them each, Gennie, Fru, but most of all Mellinde! He wondered—would she and Gennie be waiting to greet him in the beyond-here place when he drew his final breath? He had never been a man of God, but now he wished he had been, hoping too that there would be one there to welcome him. Paolo readied to close his eyes, certain this would be his final time.
Though just before he did, he saw Fru make her return, spry from food now, as she promptly leapt upon his sodden pillow to nuzzle at his cheek. He could see her sweet, glistening eyes gazing at him through the scarce moonlight with that whole and hallowed love that only our animal companions can, as if to say, “Do not be afraid, dear Paolo. You are eagerly awaited.”
Fru took her leave from Paolo then, leaping onto Gennie's still poised, but now well-mortised lap. The cat did seem quite pleased with herself for achieving her first mouse meal conquest. At last well-fed, thought Paolo. How pleased he was that Fru was here with him to hold her vigil while he breathed his last! Paolo hadn’t strength left to fret, but he did hope that a kind sojourner would soon appear to offer the cat succor and bestow her with a happy hearth.
—Hillary Frasier Hays 3/2025
Mellinde singing “Riven” (Druvënthrá Thralnë-dúvë):
🌿 Mistwalkers of Æthralûn (Rewoven Lore)
The People:
The Mistwalkers, or Æthralûnians, are a secretive, earthbound people who dwell in Æthralûn,
a valley lost to ordinary maps, hidden deep in the misted forests of an ancient world.
Bound to the rhythms of breath, mist, and root, they live close to the land,
seeing themselves not as masters of nature but as its fleeting guests.
They believe the mists are the breath of the Earth and Sky themselves—
and that to walk the mist is to walk between seen and unseen worlds.
Culture and Daily Life:
Mistwalker life is simple and woven with reverence:
Their homes are low, rounded shelters of peat, woven branch, and moss,
sunk into the misted woodlands, barely distinguishable from the earth itself.Children tend small herds of strange, horned creatures — part horse, part goat, part stag —
and gather wood and pure water from sacred springs hidden deep within the veils of fog.Women are devoted to Mother Terra (Súlterra) —
serving as healers, gatherers of medicinal herbs, and keepers of earthlore.Men are devoted to Father Astral (Súlastrë) —
tending to sky-signs, stone markers, and songs that bind the mists to their sacred ground.
Their songs and speech, intoned in Thrávënar,
are shaped as offerings — breathing life back into the unseen forces that sustain them.
Laws and Rituals:
Among the Mistwalkers, romantic love between men and women is forbidden —
seen as a threat to the purity of their service to Earth and Sky.
Upon reaching adulthood, young Mistwalkers must partake in the Draught of Forgetting (Lúthdraëth) —
a sacred drink brewed from mistflowers and twilight herbs,
which steals the memory of any coupling touch or carnal longing.In rare cases, a child is born — but conceived through ritual reverence, not love.
No mother or father knows the other in fullness,
and it is said that true love, if spoken aloud, would unravel the mistveil itself.
Exile and Consequence:
If any Mistwalker defies the law of Forgetting —
if love blooms where only duty should grow —
they are cast out of Æthralûn,
their name unspoken, their hearthstone shattered.
Exiles must survive as they can in the coarse outer world —
where the mists no longer protect, and the songs fall unheard.
Some say the mist follows them still,
grieving their banishment —
and some say their broken songs become laments heard by lost souls on cold nights.
Aesthetics and Beliefs:
The Mistwalkers wear woven garments of undyed wool and mist-cloth, stitched with spirals and broken rings.
They craft memory-vessels from mistglass, shimmering artifacts that capture lost songs and prayers.
Their writing spirals outward from a central glyph, mirroring the breath of the mists.
They believe life is a single sigh across the veil —
and that in death, they dissolve not into dust,
but into thrávkyn,
the living resonance of all who have walked the mist before them.
🌿 Sacred Customs and Terms of the Mistwalkers
🌫️ Lúthdraëth
(LOOTH-drah-ehth)
The Draught of Forgetting
— A sacred herbal brew consumed by Mistwalkers upon reaching adulthood.
It blurs memory of intimacy and suppresses carnal longing, preserving devotion to Earth and Sky.
🌫️ Súlterra
(SOOL-tehr-rah)
Mother Terra
— The living spirit of Earth, root, and stone.
Mistwalker women devote their lives to her through healing, herbcraft, and midwifery of life's cycles.
🌫️ Súlastrë
(SOO-lah-streh)
Father Astral
— The celestial breath of Sky and Star.
Mistwalker men devote themselves to his signs, tending the sky-markers, singing the star-chants, and guarding the balance of air and mist.
🌫️ Thrávkyn
(THRAHV-kin)
The Living Resonance
— The collective breath and spirit of all Mistwalkers who have ever lived, woven into a single mist-thread that hums beneath and beyond the visible world.
🌫️ Mistveil (Lúthraë)
(LOOTH-rah-eh)
— The sacred mist that shields Æthralûn from the outer world.
It is tended and renewed through song, breath, and the Dream-Rituals of the Veil.
🌫️ Mistglass (Vrëthlaë)
(VRETH-lah-eh)
— A luminous, semi-solid material created from condensed mist and sung resonance.
Used to craft memory-vessels, flutes, and sacred relics.
🌫️ The Veil Rite (Hlórëth Thráë)
(HLOHR-eth THRAH-eh)
— The sacred ceremonies at dawn and dusk where Mistwalkers sing the mists back into harmony with the world.
If neglected, the mist-thin barriers between realms would fray.
🌫️ The Thorn-Hollow
— A term for the exile world —
where fallen Mistwalkers like Gennie must survive without the mist's protection.
Here you'll see Mellinde's song and lip sync video:
Mellinde of Gennie. A long ago lifetime remembered or a lost soul in need of elegy encountered?
Mellinde sings "Riven", or "Druvënthrá Thralnë-dúvë", in one of my ChatGPT-aided constructed languages, Thrávënar.
Or see:
A poem I wrote called Riven, translated into my ChatGPT-aided conlang Thrávënar, brought forth into Mythopoetic Lament for the remembered long ago lives of Paolo, Gennie, Mellinde & the cat called Fru
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Mar 31
Paolo, Gennie, Mellinde, and the cat called Fru feel like family to me. I want to believe these were true memories, and not merely vivid imaginings. While in other deeply meditative states, I have experienced similar phenomena. I always weep when these episodes happen, and I cry when I recount them either when writing or aloud. If I happen to have been …
And: https://hillaryahays.substack.com/.../mellinde-of-gennie...